Today I went for Spiritual Response Therapy and the things the pendulum pointed out were shocking! Apparently I have been burned, hung, and drowned in many past lives. Mostly because I have a history of channeling messages from Spirit. In most instances, I was betrayed by my community and even by family. It came up at least three times in the scanning process! Can't say I was surprised. This explains my reaction when someone accused me of witchcraft a few months ago, and in public - I stayed calm but had the weirdest reaction on the inside. He didn't say it in a nasty way but it was all I could do to keep my imagination from running in dark directions. Think I might use this as inspiration to write a story about past-life traumas.
This might also explain why I had to move across the world before I could open up to healings and readings again. It's a lot easier to experiment with this kind of thing when you're far from home and no one finds out about it. My hometown is very Catholic and I haven't told a lot of people about my new hobbies. Thankfully, my immediate family has always been supportive and they do know all about this blog. It's also just dawning on me that this past-life trauma could also be the reason for my quiet nature. I don't voice my opinions as often as I should. It's like I'm hiding my true self.
Today's healing was interesting. It's called Spiritual Response Therapy. It's something I will need to look into. Essentially the healer used a clear quartz pendulum to scan for past-life issues that needed healing. She had this neat little book full of diagrams and the pendulum would point out the issue that needed resolving. Her intent was to find anything that was holding me back from setting up a healing practice. I had lots of fears come up: fear of failure, fear of disappointing. I'm glad we managed to clear those and now I just need to watch my thoughts and keep them positive (or at least neutral). It was a productive session and we followed up with a great reading about my business plan. Not only am I an energy healer, but I am meant to write about healing so that others will open up to it as well! Funny because I hadn't mentioned the blog to her in much detail but it came through very strongly.