I’m the tiger from my nightmares 🔥🔥🔥

Growing up, I had a recurring nightmare where we were having lunch at my grandmother’s house. The wall came tumbling down and a roaring tiger came out from behind. Everyone went scrambling - my aunts, uncles, cousins and family friends who were there for lunch. My 8- year old self ran and hid behind a big black piano. 

It didn’t look like exactly my grandparents' house, for one, we seemed to be eating on large picnic tables. I have a clear image of one of my aunts staying put, the rest of the people were hazy. The walls were made of carton too; it didn't keep anything back. 

I would stay huddled behind that piano bench, scared that the tiger would eat me. It paced back and forth but it didn’t feel angry or hungry. My inner child was terrified, as you would be if a tiger suddenly appeared in front of you and you were stuck there. 

After a few weeks of this recurring dream, one night I was watching the tiger and I suddenly realized that it was a dream. The tiger wasn’t there. But unfortunately, someone at school had told us that if you died in a dream you would then die in real life. So I hid from that tiger for years....  

Decoding Dreams

Fast forward about 35 years and I asked a Jungian psychologist for recommendations on child psychology books. At the time, I wanted to enroll in a counseling masters but I wasn’t sure what style to adopt. 

He recommended an author called Donald Kalsched and I read a book on dreams, nightmares and what they have to tell us. The ebook was super expensive so I got the Kindle in Portuguese 🇧🇷: O Mundo Interior Do Trauma (The Inner World of Trauma).  

My Portuguese isn’t great but this is what I learned. The book is good, by the way: 

• According to Kalsched, the elements in the recurring dream, or nightmare in my case, are parts of your psyche that are trying to protect you, while also revealing an unconscious complex. It's all you in the dream. 

• He calls those complexes archetypal self-care systems (translating from Portuguese) and they have energy and personality in our dream state and unconscious. I imagine they influence our behavior while we are awake too, in knee-jerk reactions? 

• We can revisit the dream to decode it; as far as I can tell, this is part of counseling sessions. My approach was to send healing to that part of me with Reiki and energy healing.

Here are my insights. I read the book two years ago but I'd forgotten about it until recently, when a song made it click.   

• If you die in a dream, you don’t die in real life. Obvious, but my inner child needed to hear that. Yesterday I started there and then sent healing to the part of me that went into hiding... 

• I‘d already been connecting with Inanna, the goddess of music and war, after a meditation where Katy Perry’s Roar came up. I was trying to make friends with a tiger but my inner child was still terrified. In energy healing, that’s a fragmented part of your psyche that that has to be brought back into the fold, gently. 

• A few weeks ago I realized that the tiger represents someone in my family - it’s a person and an energy that is powerful and that had the intention of standing up for me. That tiger energy was there for all of us. It represented visibility and presence.  

• But as a child, and even more recently as an adult, big displays of emotion threw me off. That energy was terrifying to me as a child, because of the emotion and the tiger image. My adult self isn't scared; I like the idea of a tiger spirit animal. 

That tiger was always larger than life in my unconscious, but when I bring it up and integrate it into my personality, it's amazing. This is what I need to go out into the world confidently and to keep from recoiling. So yes, awesome; the antihero becomes the antidote. I'm the tiger, it's me 🔥

Intuitively, I've felt that tiger walking with me during meditations, and leaping out of my solar plexus chakra, into the world. Here is the song that inspired this aha moment!

BTW -  I’m fluent in English, Spanish, French and I speak a little Italian. I don’t speak Portuguese but it’s similar enough to work it out. Got through a third of the book, just enough to decipher this dream. 

For now my energy healing books are available in English and Spanish 🦁

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Reiki hugs,

Regina 

 

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Regina Chouza is an energy healer, angel medium and the author of A Personal Guide to Self-Healing, Cancer & Love and Chakra Healing & Magick. Blogging at Diary of a Psychic Healer since 2010, her passion is bringing the qualities of love, joy and empowerment to healing pursuits. Read her books to unlock your intuition. 

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Imagination, Healing and Shadowscapes Tarot

The past year I have been teaching a mix of energy healing and psychic tarot in Mexico; this project wound up being a much bigger adventure than I ever imagined. There are many layers to tarot including astrology, numerology, introspection and intuition. 

I went through most of these themes independently in my student days so it has always been easy for me to see the symbolism in tarot cards. On some level, I feel like my intuition brought me back to tarot when I was ready to use the cards a learning and energy healing tool. 

Tarot Has So Much To Say!

Along the way I have picked up a few decks as each creator has his or her take on the concepts for the 78 cards. Tarot is a visual tool and we learn a lot by looking at different illustrations; the look that resonates also depends on how we feel that day. My latest find is Shadowscapes Tarot by Stephanie Pui-Mun Law. It is full of fairies and nature spirits, not the least bit scary, but still accurate when it comes to conveying the meaning in the cards. Especially the sad ones, which are necessary for healing. 

For example, the Tower shows a tall structure about to crumble on top of a village, destabilizing town life. And the Devil depicts a person caught in the prison of his mind and fears. But this deck doesn't drive people away - not that there is anything wrong with Rider Waite decks (I love those too). For some of us, gentle images are easier to digest until we understand the meaning of the superficially dark cards and can put them into context. Shadowscapes Tarot is fantastic for newbies and seasoned readers alike as it doesn't shy away from the deeper meanings. 

Once we have gotten to know the cards and why difficult images are in the tarot, we can use those images to connect with our Shadow - a part of ourselves that needs to be embraced though often, we are reluctant to even look at it. The qualities that we would very much like to sweep under the rug stare back at us, and as we can be afraid of seeing them, the 'unhelpful' reaction is to panic and put the cards away, sometimes forever. 

Healing Yourself With Tarot

If instead we view our emotional reactions as a sign that we still need to heal, this is where the magic happens. Not in the Harry Potter sense of the word, but in the transform your life and kick ass way. Shadowscapes Tarot is lovely because it lays the shadow out for us in a way that isn’t confrontational, giving us a chance to feel and heal that discomfort. 

I like to heal my reaction to disconcerting cards by holding one in my hands and filling it with Energy Healing: picturing violet light as it flows through my mind, body and Aura, integrating whatever is in the card that I didn't want to look at. We don't have to force anything, just let that energy flow. Violet light is a mix of Peace (Blue) and Compassion (Pink). We can all practice Energy Healing - more on that below 😉 

Another approach can be to visualize yourself in the cards that you pulled and ask your intuition to guide you through a healing meditation where you see yourself living those scenes, and coming across victorious. This is energy healing + imagining, so we can repeat the process as often as we'd like. If we get stuck, we can use automatic writing and journaling to explore the reasons why. Tarot was designed to help us tease out our intuition and subconscious. 

Taking It Further

Chakra Healing & Magick walks us through the steps to awaken our intuition and unlock our healing abilities. The Tarot tools  are sprinkled through the Chapters 3, 4 and 7 on creativity, chakras, and how tarot cards relate to crystals, magick and Aura healing.  

USA ~ Canada ~ UK ~ India

 Australia ~  Singapore ~ Nederland ~ Sweden

Germany ~ Italy ~ France ~ Japan 

Mexico ~ Brasil ~ Spain 

Emirates ~ Belgium

Disponible en español 🇲🇽

USA ~ Mexico ~ España

Find a deck that you love and use it to heal yourself - there are many options. Please have a look at this video by Katy Perry! I love the song, and the video is full of symbolism from the Major Arcana. 

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Regina Chouza is an energy healer, angel medium and the author of A Personal Guide to Self-Healing, Cancer & Love and Chakra Healing & Magick. Blogging at Diary of a Psychic Healer since 2010, her passion is bringing the qualities of love, joy and empowerment to healing pursuits. Read her books to unlock your intuition. 

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What is Holy Fire ® Reiki ?

Hello Chickpeas! 

I want to tell you about a new Reiki class that I took this weekend. First off, when I signed up for Reiki in 2012 there were only three levels: beginners, practitioner and teacher. And if you hadn’t noticed, Reiki is one of the modalities that I enjoy most; I enjoy giving myself Reiki as much as I love teaching it =) 

To make a long story short, when people refer to Reiki they usually mean Usui Reiki - a system of natural healing that was developed in Japan by Mikao Usui about 100 years ago. Legend has it that Usui, a lifelong buddhist, embarked on a meditative retreat on Mount Kurama near Kyoto, hoping to achieve higher degrees of clarity and trust in his life (another word for enlightenment). 

As legend has it, he felt a massive ray of light come down from above. That rush of light entered his body through the top of his head and when he came to again, he decided it was time to leave. Usui was already a healer and over the next days and weeks, he noticed that healings happened spontaneously and with less effort on his part. He shared this with others by teaching a system that is now known as Usui Reiki. Fast forward 100 years, and different styles of Reiki have been taught to thousands around the world.

How Does One Teach Reiki? 

In order to teach Reiki, Usui and the Reiki Masters who followed him devised a process that is referred to as an attunement. This is a brief healing with which the teacher instills Reiki in the student's energy and body, opening the pathway so that from that moment on, the student can channel Reiki whenever they like. Once you have Reiki, it is yours for life (I LOVE THAT). The past seven years I have used it extensively with myself, with friends and with clients, many of whom were cancer patients mid-treatment (always complementary to medical care). 

In my experience the effects have been soothing and powerful. But I have also wondered how that attunement process came about. Usui received it directly from Source, and since then, everyone who has received Reiki has received it through the filter of the human body (teacher) who shared it with them. Based on my experience with energy healing in general, I have learned that human bodies can only channel a certain amount of energy; the same is true for Reiki Masters. Wouldn't it be cool if we could establish our connection to Reiki without that human filter?

Direct Attunements Are Possible 

In Holy Fire ® Reiki classes, the connection to Reiki is through a guided meditation where the teacher sets the intention, steps back and lets that Holy Fire ® energy come down from above to interact with each of the students individually. This was a Reiki Master class so we had four ignitions (as they're called) over a three day period, each stronger than the last. With the first one I felt lots of irritation as it brought to the surface everything that I had swept under the rug (reiki healing crisis). The second brought a welcome wave of peace and light. And the third a rush of compassion; the subject of my next post as the feeling was pretty much new to me. 

Each of the ignitions was unique. By the time they are over, your energy has been shifted over to a frequency that is more open and loving and also empowered when it comes to healing. Reiki was strong enough as it is, with this direct empowerment it flows a lot quicker than I was used to. That said, I believe Reiki is frequency and we are each guided to the teacher and styles that are suited to help us heal at that point in our lives. The traditional style of Reiki attunements has worked well for me the past seven years =) 

Usui Reiki vs Holy Fire® Reiki

Usui was a Japanese healer and as you would expect, that healing path is largely influenced by Asian religions. In Holy Fire® we come across a healing vibration that is closer to what we see in the Bible  (think Moses, the Burning Bush and Healing Miracles). The next step after Holy Fire® is a Master Teacher class in Karuna Reiki® - which takes us back to the compassion of eastern traditions. We went through both this week; Karuna Reiki® gives us quite a few tools to work through the shadow side including fears, insecurities and unconscious patterns. Karuna Reiki® is usually studied after we have become Usui (or Holy Fire®) Reiki Teachers. 

And Some Aries Fire (In Me)

Two years ago my progressed Sun moved into Aries, astro speak for: I am a lot less patient than I used to be. Traditional Usui Reiki is fantastic and while it worked well for me for years, ever since my Progressed Sun changed signs, I want everything to happen that much faster. I think the Universe answered my prayers with this Holy Fire®  Reiki class. And as my intuition kept telling me: No Aries wants to heal slowly hahaha. I kept hearing that phrase to the tune of Ricky Martin and Cristina Aguilera.  

Please note that Holy Fire ® Reiki is complementary to medical care, not alternative. The healing referred to in this article is how quickly I have let go of things that used to bother me; the peace that follows is just priceless. That said, Reiki is a wonderful complement to medical care! Please follow this link for more on energy healing and cancer support.  

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The Lord's Prayer in "72 Names of God"

The past year I have been taking a Practical Kabbalah class where we study the mystical meaning of Hebrew letters, the numerology for each letter and where they are on the Tree of Life. In Kabbalah, the belief is that God activated combinations of Hebrew letters to create the Universe in an explosion of light. My kabbalah teacher calls them 22 blocks of creation. 

1)   Diamonds in the Rough 

I have family members that are devout Catholics and about 10 years ago, one of my uncles signed up for a year-long class on Judaism because he thought that it was impossible to fully understand Catholicism unless you were familiar with the Jewish faith (after all, Jesus was Jewish). Initially there were plenty of Jewish concepts in Christianity, but the early Church (100-300AD) ended up dropping many of these to make it easier for non-Jews to convert. 

If we look at the New Testament as a guide, leaving out the historical context gives us a limited view. Jesus is quoted as saying that we would do what he did and more, but we haven't. Maybe it is because we are missing part of the equation. 

Then I had a epiphany about the Bible story where a large crowd is gathered, and how Jesus was said to multiply fish and bread to be able to feed them. I went looking for a copy of the Bible, and as I was reading it again, a visual of the "Diamonds in the Rough" card from The Kabbalah Centre’s 72 Names of God deck came to mind. As it turns out, the exact number of fish and bread mentioned in the story coincides with the numerology of the Hebrew letters on this card. The card is about taking coal and turning it into diamonds, or a bad situation and turning it around. My conclusion was that the combination of letters were the key. Read the post here: Miracle Making With Hebrew Letters {LINK}

2) What Are The 72 Names? 

There is a passage in the Torah where Moses leads the Jewish people out of Egypt and they find themselves trapped between the Egyptian army and the Red Sea. The sea parts and they escape. How did this happen? And are we meant to take it literally? I don't speak or read Hebrew, but I am told that in this passage in the Torah, there are 72 combinations of letters that appear for the very first time. 

They are often referred to as Names of God (3 letters each) but Dalia, our teacher, tells us that they would be better described as qualities or attributes of God. The Kabbalah Centre has a meditation deck with the meaning for each of the 72 combinations, and we can connect with these "Names of God" to heal ourselves, and in my experience, to release fear, anger, or unhealthy patterns, and just generally to feel more loving, cooperative and empowered. 

3) The Lord's Prayer 

Two weeks ago I was thinking about the Lords Prayer and just when I read "Give us this day our daily bread," the Diamonds in the Rough card from the Kabbalah Centre's deck came to mind. WOW! It stopped me in my tracks. Years ago I wrote a post on how the Lords Prayer is the ultimate manifesting tool (Here), what if those miraculous letters were always meant to activate its power? Is there a a "Name of God" for each of the lines in the prayer? It has taken me a while, but I played around with different combinations and came up with the list below. I included a brief explanation, but it will make more sense with the 72 Names of God deck. 

FYI,  I don’t have a Hebrew keyboard, you’ll find the letters depicted correctly on the JPG at the bottom of this blog post.

And please note that Hebrew is read from RIGHT to LEFT. 

‬ ו ו‬ ל - Our Father Who Art in Heaven: 

The letters are Lamed Vav Vav, and keep in mind that Hebrew is read from right to left - the squiggly letter that looks like a snake is Lamed. This letter is meant to reflect the energy of the teacher, an the intuitive drive to go 'upstairs' and ask God for answers (while grounding yourself too). The 72 Names deck associates this combination with "Dialing God" 

מהש  - Hallowed Be Thy Name

This association might only be made in English, but to me, the world holy sounds an awful lot like "whole" and healing is about making us whole again. So I went with Mem Hei Shin, the three letter combination that speaks of healing miracles. 

We could take this one step further with spiritual healing. And the power of setting your intent to connect with that highest and purest source of light that is available to all of us, regardless of religion (we are in the same universe, after all). 

 - יזל - Thy Kingdom Come

The letters are Yod, Zayin, Lamed. Dalia, my Kabbalah teacher, tells us that Yod (the little one) is the most powerful letter because it holds a spark of divine light that can become anything. Zayin is a sword, or a tool used in harvesting crops. It helps us break through, while lamed draws on the light in the upper worlds. This combination is about switching on our inner light and finding that kingdom within ourselves.  

If you are familiar with Reiki, it feels like the Distance Symbol, which helps us connect with our inner Christ Light or Inner Buddha, depending on your beliefs.  

ייל - Thy Will Be Done 

Yod, Yod, Lamed. This one has worked best for me when I need help as it involves surrendering our will or opinions, and letting the best solution come forward. While calling on that Divine light and asking it to use its power and wisdom in the situation. 

סיט - On Earth As It is in Heaven

Samekh, Yod, Tet. This is the miracle card, and what is a miracle if it's not bridging the gap between Heaven and Earth? What I like about Berg's interpretation is that we play an part bringing this about, by transforming ourselves. Also, on a personal level, the Yod and the Tet resonate with the Tibetan symbols that are used in Reiki Master trainings. 

רהע - Give Us This Day Our Daily Bread

The letters are Resh, Hei, Ayin - this is the letter combination that I mentioned above. The numerical value of Resh is 200, Hei is 5 and Ayin is 70. In numerology we reduce numbers down to single digits by adding them, which gives 2, 5 and 7. If you'll look at those passages where Jesus multiplied bread for a large crowd, there were 2 and 5 baskets in one of the passages, and 7 in the other. Bread can be actual physical bread so that we don't starve to death, but also in the spiritual sense if it feeds your soul. 

החש - Forgive Us Our Trespasses

This one I am going to skip for now, I don't want to give it all away but if you look up Hei, Chet, Shin, it should be obvious. That said, there were two or three different Names that could have fit in here. I spent the most time fiddling around with the forgiveness lines, as it does so many things: sets us free, heals us, releases guilt, builds bridge and helps us find peace so that we can get on with it. 

ילה  - As We Forgive Those Who Trespass Against US  

Yod, Lamed, Hey. There is a concept I have heard several times, both at the Berg's Kabbalah Center and where I now study (associated with Dr Joseph Michael Levry). We generate the most bad karma and activate our shadow when we judge others. There is a sphere on the Kabbalistic Tree of Life that is associated with judging or punishing others, when we channel that sphere, it throws our whole ecosystem out of balance. This name can heal that. 

פהל - Lead Us Not Into Temptation

Pei, Hei, Lamed. I love this card and the image that goes with it more than any other in the 72 Names of God deck. It is about conquering addictions, and the soccer player on the card has the number 19 on his back, a number associated with the SUN and victory.  

ייי - Deliver Us From Wrongdoing 

Yod, Yod, Yod. Dr Joseph Michael Levry developed what I like to call a singing yoga (Naam Yoga), where we use mantras, yoga poses and chakra boosters to activate our personal energy. Naam Yoga is also more fun than any yoga class I have ever taken, though less focused on the yoga workout than the singing and sound healing  =)   

One of the mantras that we sing in class is The Triple Mantra for Protection; it starts with the Ad Guray Nameh and is said to keep our vibration high so that we are always in the right place at the right time, and never in the wrong place at the wrong time. The Triple Yod has the same effect. This is the closest version I could find online, but it’s not the same exact mantra (this one is shorter). Listen on Spotify.  

The mantra speaks of bowing to the eternal wisdom and truth, the primordial wisdom. Intentionally, that connects us with the higher spheres on the Tree of Life, and the infinite wisdom from which all of creation flows (that infinite light). The Yod sits at those levels - it’s the sphere of wisdom on the Tree of Life (the second sefirot). 

Note: My Kabbalah teachers in Mexico also practiced kundalini yoga, with its emphasis on raising divine feminine energy through the spine. I don’t know if that was a coincidence, but in Kabbalah, there are concepts around the spine and what it represents. We can bridge the gap between the feminine below and the feminine above; the bridge is through the spine/heart.  

דמב - Thine is the Kingdom, Power & Glory 

This line is in the Protestant version but not the Catholic one. I  tend to include it because of the link with the Tree of Life.   

The Tree of Life has three columns (see here). The circles or spheres each represent a spiritual quality that filters down to the world. Hod is the sphere of Glory, and the lowermost sphere at the very bottom of the Tree is Malchut, which represents the universe. Malchut is often referred to as the Kingdom. There are two separate spheres that I have seen associated with Power, through strength or love. One of my Kabbalah teachers suggested that whoever wrote the Our Father had to be familiar with Kabbalah and with the Tree of Life. I just never thought I would make a leap to the 72 names of GOD, lol. 

So why did I choose these letters? In meditation decks that I have seen, Dalet Mem Bet is translated as Fear of God - or in my words - Awe of God. It is more about respect than fear, I think. The Hebrew letter Dalet also references humility and how we humans can be humble and great at the same time.

Humility keeps us from losing our grounding and letting our ego get the best of us, which has happened to quite a few people who have gone down this path. 

והו - Now and Forever

Vav, Hei, Vav. This is the time travel combination, and it talks about past, present and future in one. 

ערי - Amen 
Ayin, Resh, Yod = Absolute faith. This name reflects the certainty + intention of the Amen. 

How Do We Use This??? 

What I have been doing is visualising the three letter names with each of the phrases, drawing them, or just reciting the names and thinking of the concepts.  To keep it simple, I often visualise Lamed Vav Vav at the beginning and close with Ayin Resh Yud near the end. Before working my way up to this, I had been choosing cards from the Kabbalah Centre's deck and using Theta Healing meditations to download their vibration to my physical body and Aura. Stay tuned for a meditation on Youtube - coming soon!

 

 

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Regina Chouza is an energy healer, angel medium and the author of A Personal Guide to Self-Healing, Cancer & Love and Chakra Healing & Magick. Blogging at Diary of a Psychic Healer since 2010, her passion is bringing the qualities of love, joy and empowerment to healing pursuits. Read her books to unlock your intuition. 

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