I’m the tiger from my nightmares 🔥🔥🔥

Growing up, I had a recurring nightmare where we were having lunch at my grandmother’s house. The wall came tumbling down and a roaring tiger came out from behind. Everyone went scrambling - my aunts, uncles, cousins and family friends who were there for lunch. My 8- year old self ran and hid behind a big black piano. 

It didn’t look like exactly my grandparents' house, for one, we seemed to be eating on large picnic tables. I have a clear image of one of my aunts staying put, the rest of the people were hazy. The walls were made of carton too; it didn't keep anything back. 

I would stay huddled behind that piano bench, scared that the tiger would eat me. It paced back and forth but it didn’t feel angry or hungry. My inner child was terrified, as you would be if a tiger suddenly appeared in front of you and you were stuck there. 

After a few weeks of this recurring dream, one night I was watching the tiger and I suddenly realized that it was a dream. The tiger wasn’t there. But unfortunately, someone at school had told us that if you died in a dream you would then die in real life. So I hid from that tiger for years....  

 

Decoding Dreams

Fast forward about 35 years and I asked a Jungian psychologist for recommendations on child psychology books. At the time, I wanted to enroll in a counseling masters but I wasn’t sure what style to adopt. 

He recommended an author called Donald Kalsched and I read a book on dreams, nightmares and what they have to tell us. The ebook was super expensive so I got the Kindle in Portuguese 🇧🇷: O Mundo Interior Do Trauma (The Inner World of Trauma).  

My Portuguese isn’t great but this is what I learned. The book is good, by the way: 

• According to Kalsched, the elements in the recurring dream, or nightmare in my case, are parts of your psyche that are trying to protect you, while also revealing an unconscious complex. It's all you in the dream. 

• He calls those complexes archetypal self-care systems (translating from Portuguese) and they have energy and personality in our dream state and unconscious. I imagine they influence our behavior while we are awake too, in knee-jerk reactions? 

• We can revisit the dream to decode it; as far as I can tell, this is part of counseling sessions. My approach was to send healing to that part of me with Reiki and energy healing.

Here are my insights. I read the book two years ago but I'd forgotten about it until recently, when a song made it click.   

• If you die in a dream, you don’t die in real life. Obvious, but my inner child needed to hear that. Yesterday I started there and then sent healing to the part of me that went into hiding... 

• I‘d already been connecting with Inanna, the goddess of music and war, after a meditation where Katy Perry’s Roar came up. I was trying to make friends with a tiger but my inner child was still terrified. In energy healing, that’s a fragmented part of your psyche that that has to be brought back into the fold, gently. 

• A few weeks ago I realized that the tiger represents various elements (or characters) in the family tree  - it’s a pattern and an energy that is powerful and that had the intention of standing up for us. The piano and the tiger represented two sides of the same coin, funny enough. That energy represented visibility and presence.

• But as a child, and even more recently as an adult, big displays of emotion threw me off. That energy was terrifying to me as a kid, because of the emotion and the tiger image. My adult self isn't scared; I like the idea of a tiger spirit animal. 

That tiger was always larger than life in my unconscious, but when I bring it up and integrate it into my personality, it's amazing. This is what I need to go out into the world confidently and to keep from recoiling. So yes, awesome; the antihero becomes the antidote. I'm the tiger, it's me 🔥🔥🔥

Intuitively, I've felt that tiger walking with me during meditations, and leaping out of my solar plexus chakra, into the world. Here is the song that inspired this aha moment!

Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift  

BTW -  I’m fluent in English, Spanish, so-so French and I speak a little Italian. I don’t speak Portuguese but it’s similar enough to work it out. Got through a third of the book, just enough to decipher this dream. 

For now my energy healing books are available in English and Spanish 🦁

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Regina 

 

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Tapping Into Your Soul’s Infinite Potential ✨

I had a nerdy aha moment and I want to share it with you. In the past I’ve written about how, astrologically, the North Node’s zodiac sign indicates how we can find happiness outside of our comfort zone. The opposite sign, or South Node, is where we get stuck in a self defeating behavioral pattern. Moving from one to the other can be uncomfortable, and often requires self-healing. The tools in my book, Chakra Healing & Magick, will help you break free. 

My North Node is in Leo - it asks me to shine bright and share what I do openly and enthusiastically. But for the longest time, I was reluctant to talk about energy healing and my mystical interests. Showing off felt like a taboo when I was growing up, and the mystical healer side was unheard of in my circle. Owning and revealing that was a challenge; my blog was anonymous for a few years. I was working in a science environment, which made it harder. 

This started to change after I read my first astrology book, even though the shift was slow. The North Node gives us direction, but breaking through our deepest patterns takes time and a lot of self-healing 🌤️

>> In parallel, I have blogged about the Kabbalistic Tree of Life and how it depicts our connection with the spiritual world, as well as providing a map for the soul’s growth. The Tree is a map of sorts, with ten spheres of light, one in the physical world and the rest in the spiritual, mental and emotional realms of existence. 

You’ll find a diagram below. Without going into the full details here, the bottom most sphere (10) represents the physical world and universe.The upper nine represent the spiritual realms, and aspects of your soul are on all of those, ready to wake up.

The spheres above it, 1-9 represent various degrees of divinity and on a personal level, human consciousness. We become self-aware bottom up. The themes that relate to the bottom four spheres are where we most need healing: relating, mental clarity and integrity, emotions and physical reality…

The upper most spheres (1-5) are where we connect with the parts of the soul that have been least impacted by the trials of human life, and where we find our spiritual power. We need to let go of our human insecurities to get there, including limiting beliefs and attitudes that we’ve inherited from previous family generations and from past lives…

That freedom to be yourself can be found in the 6th sphere - your Sun. This is where we choose our soul’s path over childhood conditioning, turning our attention to our full potential. Aim for the Infinite Light, the uppermost sphere and beyond. The direction is what matters, not so much that we reach it, if it even exists as a destination. The idea of aiming for that Infinite Light is in this book of kabbalistic psychology (in Spanish); my aha moment linked it with the North Node. 

Adventure  of a Lifetime - Coldplay

>> The Aha Moment: Two days ago I streamed a meditation on my spanish language instagram; the focus was healing ancestral patterns. Yesterday I was thinking about that meditation and it dawned on me that your South Node is where your soul enters the world, we find that energy in sphere 10 on the Tree of Life. Your North Node is on sphere #1, what we aim for as we grow and evolve. The ability to break free, through clarity and self-awareness, is found on the sixth sphere - that Sun 🌤️

There is more to Kabbalah than this, but each of the spheres on the Tree of Life has an archetype that relates to its energy and function. That Sun has two archetypes that help us unlock its light and power. One of them is your Soul; the task is to follow your soul’s path to infinite growth, leaving behind conditioning and limiting patterns. We each tune into a different vibration as well - what holds me back might not be an issue for others in my generation. And to be transparent, it’s not about leaving behind everything from the ancestral line, just the behaviors that worked for previous generations, but sabotage us in this life. There are a lot of good things that we can keep. 

☀ Funny thing is I had this Aha Moment yesterday, and thought to check planetary transits shortly after. The Moon was at 29 degrees Aquarius - my exact South Node and what I need to leave behind. It’s my learning curve, amplified because I’m also an Aquarius. The natal chart points to our specific challenges, what we internalize. 

Like I mentioned earlier, Leo is about being happy to shine, while Aquarius likes to be behind the scenes, and is a bit detached. One is creative, the other analytical. I’ve been described as being simultaneously extreme right brain, and extreme left brain. It’s hard to reconcile the two; at some point, I stopped trying. Also, I have a lot going on with the Pisces (intuition) and Virgo (science) axis - And truthfully, on both ends, I am often still in my head, not my heart. 

Shining on the page??

Even as I was writing my book, Chakra Healing & Magick, I was self-conscious about it. You won’t believe it, but it’s taken me this long to be comfortable with the magick part being out there for anyone to read. On another level, Leo energy is about following your heart, and Aquarius is both sociable and community focused. The gift of the North Node in Leo is to connect with your heart, and through it, your people.  

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Regina 

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Rewrite Your Life Story with Tarot & Energy Healing

“If you are lucky enough to find a tarot coloring book you will have struck a gold mine, as the symbolism in tarot speaks to our subconscious in ways that a pop culture or movie-themed coloring book never will” ~  Chakra Healing & Magick, by yours truly…

Energy Healing and Tarot

One of the key themes in my book is how we would all benefit from engaging with our creativity as part of the energy healing process - whether we turn to music, art, theatre or automatic writing. Writing and drawing are two of my favorite techniques, especially when I combine them with crystals or tarot. Tarot speaks to the unconscious in a way that is profound, and as discussed in Chapter 7, it also helps us focus our energy healing sessions. 

The idea is to heal the mental, emotional and spiritual weight of past experiences - tarot brings these to life in a way that is accessible to everyone. We can then combine those insights with energy healing to heal the past, rewriting our story so that we become catalysts for growth, as opposed to victims of circumstance. I offer energy healing sessions that are based on tarot, and this overall approach can be combined with Jungian counseling. Let’s go deeper by clarifying and reframing the personal narratives that hold us back. 

Color Your Unconscious 💜

Today I’m excited to share that one of my former tutors is releasing a tarot coloring book later this year - can’t wait to see it! Avril Price is a fantastic teacher, with 20 plus years of teaching and tarot reading experience. I signed up for a workshop with her last month, on my London holiday. Out this November, the book is sure to be a gold mine. It’s called The Watkins Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot Coloring Book. It can be ordered on Barnes & Noble.

Avril’s new coloring book focuses on the original Rider Waite Smith deck, upon which most modern decks have been designed. It is a good place to start because once we learn the symbolism of RWS, we can read dozens of other decks without having to make a huge effort at memorization. But as I’ve mentioned elsewhere, what matters most to me is that I am drawn to the images, both intuitively and artistically. 

With this in mind, I’ve added snapshots of some of my favorite tarot decks to my latest Instagram post. They are all fab and easy for beginners. In full transparency, I haven’t seen Avril’s book yet but based on my experience with her in class, I’m sure it will be great. If you do buy another deck, having both visuals will come in handy. 

If you’re new to Diary of a Psychic Healer, the blog posts on this link are from my student days with Avril Price. Please have a look at the blog on your laptop and search for the topic of your choice. Many years and 550+ posts since this adventure began. 

Reiki hugs, 

Regina 

Ps … Book a reading with Avril on Instagram.com/avrilpricetarot. 

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Remote Viewing & Mediumship

I’m on vacation in London for a few weeks - it has been ten years since I moved away and I find myself loving it. It’s my favorite city, by far. Didn’t realize just how many friends I still had here, and it’s been so cool catching up with everyone. 

Along the way, I signed up for two workshops at my former psychic school. Funny enough, both workshops were held in the same room where I took my first classes, back in 2010, and where I later had to do a platform demonstration of angel readings. Have to admit I was feeling nostalgic. 

 

The first workshop was taught by the remote viewer and psychic, Ann Théato. We began with a few intuition exercises to read each other’s Auras and pinpoint areas of tension. My classmate saw stuck energy in my left ankle (I wear a compression stocking that wasn’t visible) and in my tummy - both impressions, accurate. 

But the big surprise came when the teacher had us do the same psychic meditation that we did in my first ever clairvoyance workshop, back in January 2010. You tune into your classmate’s home psychically, seeing and feeling it with your intuition, and describe it to them. When I attended that class 14 years ago, it totally blew my mind 🤩🤩🤩 Now it seems normal.

One of the things that stood out this week: I sensed that my classmate’s home should have music but that it wasn’t there. It turned out that her partner is a DJ and music was the norm for them, but his speakers broke down. The music was playing in his headphones, not the house. She was able to describe quite a few details too - my dog, decorations, etc. 

By the looks of it, most if not all, of my classmates were able to remote view each other’s homes. The teacher’s way of working was direct, a quick opening meditation and onto the good stuff. 

After that we changed partners and tried a new exercise that blended mediumship and clairvoyance - tuning into the home of a family member that had passed away and describing their home. We didn’t know who the person was; finding out was part of the class assignment. 

I felt it was my classmate’s paternal grandmother, and when I described the house, the look on her face was a clear confirmation. I liked this approach because looking at a loved one’s house is emotionally easier than receiving messages. Even after all this time, I’m still not keen to go there, but it’s nice to know that it is possible. It gives people closure. 

If you are interested in learning mediumship, Ann Théato teaches online at AnneTheato.com.

Reiki hugs, 

Regina 

Ps … I flopped at the classic remote viewing protocol. RV is a detailed psychic technique that has allegedly been used by law enforcement. My previous remote viewing posts can be found here (2013-14)

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Uranus: The Planet of Disruption (Case Study)

I’ve been going over key dates in my life and checking them against transits. A transit is when a planet moves through the zodiac and makes a connection with any of the placements in your natal chart, at an angle (say 60 or 90 degrees away), or crossing it directly. The direct transit is called a conjunction. It has a strong effect but whether it's easy or hard, to be confirmed.

Uranus is the planet of change, disruption and it also happens to rule Aquarius, my Sun Sign. It has a slow orbit though, taking 84 years to go around the zodiac. Uranus transits don’t happen that often, and with big Uranus transits, something disruptive happens out of the blue 😅

A funny thing to know about me is that from age 13 to 19 (8th grade to 2nd year of college), I started the year at a different school each year. Seven schools in three countries. And it didn't feel chaotic or hectic, despite the fact that I didn't like all of the schools. If you ever need advice on what makes school fun for teens, ask me. 

The first new school was the weirdest experience. My parents had been thinking of moving to a different city for a while. It was my last year of middle school - we moved and my three siblings and I were enrolled in traditional all girl/boy schools. The school system was very square. Lots of memorization with no creativity. Having been a straight A student, I failed my exams, but made good friends. Social life, thumbs up. Academics, thumbs down. It didn't last. Two months later, we visited our old haunt on Halloween - for a long weekend, and stayed. I graduated the 8th grade at my old elementary school. 

I won't bore you with the rest of the details - but four high schools over the next four years, hopping across the pond to Europe, and moving to Mexico City, senior year. Then I was off to college in Boston 💜

🫶🏻 It has been fun and sometimes a bit disconcerting - with highs and lows. I loved three of the schools, did OK at two and obviously, would have liked more stability - but only if you stay where you’re happy. 

Today I had a look look at my astrology transits. Uranus, the planet of disruption retrograded over my natal Moon in Capricorn (crossed it backwards) the summer that we first moved, at age 13. That September, Uranus stopped its retrograde (backwards motion) at 18 degrees Capricorn and turned around; my Moon is at 19°. In November, when we'd already bailed on the relocation, Uranus crossed my Moon for the last time, in forward motion.  

> Uranus’s orbit around the zodiac lasts 84 years. Those months were a predictable time for me to experience impromptu changes around my natal Moon. The Moon is what you need to feel secure; it relates to your mom & home life. An interesting preparation for what would come next: Switzerland - Mexico - Boston - Mexico - London - and now Mexico City the past ten years. I do love spending time abroad. 

The moon in Capricorn seeks emotional and material stability. I created my own. Those teenage years I had a collection of photos on my wall, on a huge blue canvas. It traveled the world with me so that every new place felt like home. Blue relates to the sign of Cancer, an extension of your Moon, so to speak. Bring your home with you. 

The whole thing made me simultaneously resistant to goodbyes, but also, wanting to hop on a plane and travel all the time. 

Reiki hugs, 

Regina 

Ps… The last new school (age 19), I started the semester at a college in Mexico, stayed for 1-2 months and went back to Boston. 

 

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