The past couple of weeks I have been toying with the idea of putting my name and my face on my blog. On one hand I’m really loving this and I want to shout about it to everyone I meet. My mom keeps asking if she can share it with her friends and with my extended family. At the moment few people know that this is my blog. I've kept it anonymous because it gives me a chance to explore without stressing too much about whether people will understand it or like it. The other big plus is that I can write about people and the things that happen without offending them or freaking them out. Today is one of those days when I’m glad this is still anonymous.
This morning I volunteered in my school's clinic. There are usually 4-5 accredited healers and any students work under their supervision. I've been to the clinic about 5 times and it is always great practice. As a student I learn a lot because the clients tend to need healing more than my case studies. We also see a greater variety of clients. Sharing the space with another healer can be a little bit awkward and sometimes its hard to move naturally without bumping into each other. When I'm working with my own clients I tend to go where my intuition leads me. If I'm at the clinic I find myself grounding, holding the space, and staying out of the healer’s way. Some are more fluid in their approaches and they let us get in there. Other healers can be very rigid and directive.
Today the structure nearly drove me crazy. I had to make like a duck and let the water slide off my back. Don’t get me wrong, she was a lovely lady and a great healer. She gave me a healing that I am so grateful for. I have been pretty tense the past couple of weeks and I feel completely relaxed now. What I don't like is constantly being reminded that I'm a student. Pushes my yellow buttons. It makes it harder when the person who does the reminding feels obliged to teach me a lesson. I have tutors for that, and I’m two weeks away from my panel, for Christ’s sake! It was all I could do to stay centered and attuned. We got off to a rocky start because of a misunderstanding which I cleared asap. The first session was a bit awkward but eventually she warmed up to me.
I think I may have rattled her with my vibes. What can I learn from today? I could be more aware of how much order and structure people need to feel secure. My relaxed Mexican attitude puts some people feel at ease, but it can make others nervous. I have a Swiss friend at work who gets rattled when I propose a creative opening for our team meetings. All in all, today wasn’t bad. The very nice, structured healer pointed out a mistake that I need to avoid at my panel. At one point I was holding my hands too close to the client's heart chakra and she suggested I let my arms float and find the right spot. That will come in handy as I don't want to squish one of the tutor's brow chakras at the panel. Its the little things we forget when we're being watched LOL.