One of my fellow students gave me a psychic reading this week and she absolutely nailed it, the first thing she mentioned was my book collection and the fact that it’s all over the place. I have books topics ranging from business, marketing, kabbalah, quantum physics and religion to astrology, healing, energy management, angels and dowsing. She described me as quirky and then went on to talk about how to integrate that quirky personality that wants to be psychic but also wants to be a part of mainstream society.
There were a lot of reassuring messages in the reading, my favorites were:
1. My guides want me to try Automatic Writing as often as possible, it's my best bet if I want to develop my abilities and also learn to trust them. I struggle a lot with putting faith in what I experience on a psychic level and end up dismissing a lot of it when the sun comes up the next morning. Having the words on paper gives me something to come back to for proof, and also gives me a chance to go back over the messages and make sense of them.
2. I spend too much time worrying about things like my career, my flat, the handyman and the repair work that needs to be done. My primary focus in life will be my spiritual development, this is what will make me truly happy. As long as the spiritual path is sorted out, our guides will take care of all the little details like the job, the living situation, the cash flow.
3. I was given a symbolic gift but I can't remember what it was, that's why I need to write things down.
4. She also told me that she saw me living in two opposing worlds, but still managing to make them blend seamlessly. The images she saw in her meditation where of a huge garden filled with colorful flowers. Half of them were very organized, trimmed down and neat like a groomed Japanese garden. The rest were wild flowers that grew tall in all directions. The two flower types weren't separate though; they swirled together and occupying the space in peace & harmony.
We both took the nice groomed flowers to represent my life in mainstream society, and the tall wild flowers to be my psychic and spiritual development. The key message was that I didn't need to try keeping them separate, or go out of my way to seem "normal" with some people and "psychic" with others. The idea is very encouraging, and it suggests that I need to accept this wild flower side without worrying about what other groomed flowers might say.