I went for a long walk along Paseo de la Reforma today, one of the main avenues in Mexico City. The mayors office closes it on Sundays so that pedestrians and cyclists can enjoy the sights. It may be the only activity where people from all backgrounds come together. There are also free meditation, dance and yoga classes at different points. I took my five month old yorkie puppy for a long walk while the rest of my family rode their bikes on Reforma.
It was hot, I was tired and thirsty (so was the puppy), so I stopped for an iced coffee near the Angel of Independence. I sat down to write a few thoughts while my puppy tangled herself around the table legs with her leash. The past few weeks I've been thinking about how atheists have it right. Does God exist or is He just a concept we've come up with to make sense of things? There are so many religions, belief systems, etc. What is the chance that anyone is "right"?
Then I started thinking about the possibility that nothing we believe in matters. Not even our own identities, what we think of ourselves or the rest of the world. The universe is massive, if other dimensions exist then our "planet" is even smaller and more insignificant than we think. And that our lives, our struggles, etc, are just a drop in an endless ocean. Or a speck of light in an endless light.
It felt right to connect with that formlessness. To lose myself in it. Any concept of a human ego is irrelevant against the backdrop of that nothingness. What other people think of me, what I think of myself, what I think of my book and if anyone agrees with what I've written. My concept of angels, guides and intuition also disappears. It sounds crazy but connecting with that formlessness makes me feel more 'confident' than I've ever been, because the concept of right and wrong ceases to exist. I don't feel the need to label my experiences. Life is what it is and none of the things I worry about matter. With this as a starting point, anything is possible. It's the beginning ...
The Angel of Independence (snapped on my iPhone!)