Writing a Personal Story

One week ago I wrote about suddenly feeling motivated to finish my book. I have been working on it loads, and while I still feel like I am dragging my feet (maybe I am just too impatient), I am nearly there! Met with a friend who also happens to be a writer and a healer last week. She gave me constructive feedback and I have been applying her comments as well as going over the structure of the book. 

One of the things she suggested was that I build more of a narrative around my introduction. The opening pages are where I speak of my own family's experiences with illness, it helps to talk about a dilemma by giving it a personal spin first. This is a lesson that I learned, oddly enough, by listening to a Shakira song in the 1990's. It is my favorite, called Inevitable, and at one point Shakira says something about leading with your own feelings when having a difficult conversation. 

The song is in the context of a break-up - but it made me think about my book on energy healing & cancer. The question: how to approach a difficult topic, one that could be painful. If we are introducing a topic that some may not be able to assimilate head on, phrasing it in terms of your own feelings and experience takes the focus off the other person and gets the dialogue going. It is easier for people to relate to personable stories. The question for me is how much do I share? 

Some of the experiences that I am sharing also touched others. Family mostly. Not everyone is comfortable with an open approach. This week I have been refining the personal side and thinking about how to phrase it. Some aspects need to be described in a politically correct way. The wording I have now still has to be scaled back to accomodate for sensibilities. I suppose this is the case in any narrative that touches on real events. How much of it is just my story to tell? Not a lot. 

Inevitable by Shakira

Update: The personal story was published in 2013. Learn more about A Personal Guide to Self-Healing, Cancer & Love here.  

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Regina

How Learned is Your Soul?

When I can't quite wrap my head around a new concept I try to write about it. Somehow my intuition kicks in and it gives me an interpretation that I can relate to. A couple weeks ago I attended a Kabbalah class that I couldn't quite grasp and this was my solution. It was the third in a series on spiritual graduation and evolution. The overall theory I can relate to: a soul goes through many lessons before graduating from one stage of spiritual development to the next. The process can be compared to our school system where a child graduates from elementary school before moving onto high school and eventually university. We covered 3 of the 4 stages, known as Nefesh, Ruach and Neshama.  

I like to think of them as: 

• Elementary School: This is when we're learning the survival basics; at this Nefesh stage people are very much concerned with materialistic and ego based considerations like money and power. The more money you make; the stronger and safer you feel. People who believe that you can never have enough are at this level; as the ego is always desperate for more. Eckhart Tolle qualifies this group in his book A New Earth; when he says that the Rolling Stone song I Can't Get No Satisfaction personifies this stage in human development. Though this may come across as a selfish group, it is also the one that suffers the most. We all go through this phase during our soul's journey.

• High School: This is when we start thinking beyond our bubble; like high school students to dream of leaving their small towns to explore the world, those of us in the Ruach stage start to become aware of other people and how our actions influence their lives. You still want to be successful, but it has to be meaningful and it also has to make a positive impact on the world. Soul's at this stage still care about their own physical needs; but they also care about others. This is the point where being rich or comfy is not enough, there is still a drive to continuously improve your life and that of others. If a person starts believing they are better than others because of this; they flunk out and go back to elementary school. Reminds me of the children's game known as Chutes and Ladders!

• University: According to our teacher, at this level souls are self-less; they put others first and see the dignity in each individual. The rock star and the homeless man are one and the same. Kabbalah refers to this level as Neshama; it also happens to be where the class lost me. The teacher mentioned that people grow through pain; and after many many growth experiences we no longer feel pain. This kind of makes sense to me, especially having read Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth. The book talks about the pain of humiliation, defeat and pride being hurtful to our ego-self, not to your spirit. When you detach from your ego-self you stop feeling emotional pain. Stubbing your toe will still hurt; but losing face will not. When you realise that losing face does not make you less of a person, the experience is no longer painful. Now that's freedom!

Now that I've written about it I think I have fuzzy understanding of this Neshama phase. The part that still gets me is the role of pain and discomfort and whether we need to feel it to grow and move forward. Though Kabbalah says yes, my intuition says I don't need to be motivated by pain to grow. We can also be motivated by a desire for meaning, beauty or fulfillment. Change will always bring some degree of discomfort into your life, but it isn’t necessarily the catalyst. I'm not sure what the teacher meant when he said pain was necessary for growth. I will have to ask when I go back this week. What are your thoughts on the subject? 

2022 Update: It's been almost 10 years since I wrote this post; since then I moved onto classes with a more traditionally jewish teacher in Mexico. There are two additional parts to the soul which remind me of the chakra system that we studied in school. I may share this in a workshop along with intuitive meditations to bring more of your soul's light into your life. More on that here: Inner Wounds Can Be Healed to Reveal Light. 

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Regina Chouza is an energy healer, angel medium and the author of A Personal Guide to Self-Healing, Cancer & Love and Chakra Healing & Magick. Blogging at Diary of a Psychic Healer since 2010, her passion is bringing the qualities of love, joy and empowerment to healing pursuits. Read her books to heal yourself. Find her on Instagram.com/reginachouza or on Facebook, as DiaryofaPsychicHealer.

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Time to Create

Today is the first day of my new life! I was sad to leave my job though I'm feeling so much freer today. Thought it was worth taking a day off to celebrate so I spent the morning walking around Notting Hill. Then I caught up with one of my classmates from school. He's also trying to go fulltime with healing and readings. We had a nice brainstorm session and talked about our business plans. How exciting to think of everything that comes next! 

Lots of creations, activity and fire - like the Queen of Wands! 

I am still very much in corporate mode and have all of my ideas on a powerpoint presentation that covers about what I'm doing this year and where it will take me in 2014. I've also mapped out the books I want to write, when I'll release them and what I'm doing along the way to get by from a cash flow point of view. Of course things change along the way, but I find that planning helps me keep the butterflies and doubt out of the way. It helps me to focus on what I need to do next; put one foot in front of the other and keep going. Otherwise it is easy to get lost in the world of ideas; or in  my case to get caught up with angel readings and Facebook. LOL

This new phase is about creation. Taking all of my dreams and putting them down on paper, wrapping them up into books, articles or videos and sending them out into the world. I'm really looking forward to it; and I'm also keen to get back into Healing. I've been writing about it rather than practicing the past few months. Its time to get back out there. Tomorrow I have an interview at a cancer centre where I would like to volunteer as a Reiki Practitioner. I can see myself doing that 1-2 mornings a week. I might also start a Reiki Practice in London soon. Lots going on at the moment; I'm looking forward to the next few months. This card has been coming up a lot for me; as well as the King of Fire and the Queen of Swords. I like it when I see powerful cards in my readings. 

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You Are Good Enough!

A couple weeks ago I got a really nice angel reading from one of my Facebook friends. The details are a bit fuzzy now, but it ended with "You Are Good Enough! Don't Take No for an Answer!"

I remember seeing that and wondering who was going to tell me I wasn't good enough? So far things are just falling into place naturally. I've had tons of support and angelic guidance all along. 

So today I discovered that mystery opponent and it was none other than myself. Yes! You heard me. I was flipping through my draft looking at all the things I want to change before it's print ready. Suddenly I found myself thinking "Who are you kidding?!? When are you going to turn this into an actual book?" 

The next thought was "Can I really pull this off?" 

At that precise moment, the reading flashed through my mind. I remembered the words You Are Good Enough! The doubt came from my own mind.  I'm very grateful for that reading. It was totally relevant though I had no idea what it meant at the time. Its also giving me hope and encouragement to carry on.

So Thank You! You know who you are =) 

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What Comes Next?

This is my last week on the job! It's gone by so fast, I can't believe it! I gave myself a reading to calm my nerves and chill out. Though I don't make decisions based on readings, I do ask for confirmation along the way. Today the question was: do I focus on my book for a few weeks and then look at other options?  

You'll be glad to hear the tarot cards spelled out the following:

• Finish What You Started (the book) ... Take 2-3 weeks max.

• This last bit requires hard work, determination and beating your own lack of  confidence. Spot on as I'm nearly there and find myself struggling with grammar, syntax, structure. I just need to get the last 10% right.

• I also pulled the Eight of Cups which is about sadness at leaving the status quo behind. I'm sure that what I am doing is the right for me, but I'll miss my colleagues and the friends that I have made at work over the years. 

• This card I have conveniently forgotten. I think it might have been a picture of a boy reading a book though I may be wrong.

• New partnership on the horizon ...?  =) 

Obviously I'm nervous, but I am also feeling a lot like this song from Leonardo Dicaprio's movie The Beach (Pure Shores by All Saints) ... 

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Channeling Christ Energy

This weekend I sent distant healing to a friend of my mom's. She is undergoing treatment for cancer. This is the first time I send her healing and the session came as a surprise. I usually sit in the park and send healing; thanks to the cold I sat in a Catholic Church instead. It is nice when you let the environment influence the healing. I lit a candle and said three quick Our Father's with the intent to channel Jesus's healing energy before drawing the Distant Reiki symbol in the air. I had never tried this but it worked well; the energy that came through was solid gold and it had a Christmassy feeling to it. Christ Energy is typically described as gold and this looked and felt like liquid gold. 

I had a sense of it filling her heart with pure golden light and healing before spilling over to the rest of her body. The energy went from gold to pale blue; Mother Mary's calming energy. By then I was just observing. It went back to liquid gold and proceeded to fill every last cell in her pancreas. Solid gold capsules formed in the areas where the tumor had been. They contained the energy of the tumor so that it could be healed, dissolved and released without coming into contact with the other energies in her body. What happened next was confusing, I heard the words heart transplant. 

Did this mean she needed a heart transplant? Clearly I wasn't going to carry out a physical transplant so I thought maybe her Heart Chakra needed some serious healing? The Heart Chakra feeds energy to the pancreas, so this could be the case. But what was going to heal her Heart Chakra  This is when the image of the Sacred Heart came to mind. In Christian iconography the Sacre Coeur represents Jesus Christ's immortality. Did this mean I was supposed to visualise the Sacred Heart going into her Heart Chakra? Apparently not. 

It went into my heart instead and my Chakra went from green to gold. I felt a warm, solid energy building in my heart and spilling down my arms to my palms. It was a strangely beautiful sensation; I had a healing heart transplant! Next I visualised my mom's friend sitting in front of me, got a sense of where her Heart Chakra would be and let the energy flow to her. I could feel her Heart Chakra even though she wasn't there. When I tried bringing my hands closer together there was a pressure that wouldn't let me move them in. I also had a sense of this gold connecting to a similar gold in her core. It was beautiful. Have to admit my Heart Chakra felt empty and a bit plain when it passed.  

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Regina Chouza is an energy healer, angel medium and the author of A Personal Guide to Self-Healing, Cancer & Love and Chakra Healing & Magick. Blogging at Diary of a Psychic Healer, her passion is bringing the qualities of love, joy and empowerment to healing pursuits. Read her books to unlock your intuition. 

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